SELF PORTRAIT THURSDAY!
Hey guys. Happy Thursday.
I’m so ready for the beach! I can’t wait to just lie on the sand and toast my skin. I feel I’ll be talking about how much I like going to the beach all summer. And then I’ll be talking about how much I miss it once it’s too cold to go. But, hey, it’s the perfect thing to do with friends—or alone. Just pack some reading or music, sunblock, drugs, etc. You’re good to go.
I had a broke week. I depleted my leisure money budget, so I have been lying low. Just painting, watching 3+ hour documentaries, eating. When I’m broke I tend to avoid going out and being social because I know something will pop out at me, something I need to buy. Or I’ll walk by a restaurant that looks good and might want to stop in. I have self control. Obviously. But I just tend to stay indoors during those times. To avoid temptation.
But because I’ve been staying indoors the past week, I’ve been reading the internet a lot more on my days off than I normally do. (At work I’m on the computer from 11am to 9pm just about, so I really try to stay away from browsing the internet when I’m off work.) I caught all the RuPaul/”tranny” controversy, and was getting so bothered by all the back and forth.
I had posted the original link (where Ru talks about loving the word “tranny”) on my Facebook and was promptly deleted by a couple people. I mean, these are people I don’t care about, really. They were just random internet people I knew somehow. But I always recognized their posts because they were always so infight-y and negative. Calling out people from the community. (Whatever “community” means to you…) Like “Fuck this person!”
(I think that day, one of them described Ru as a “shit stain”… You know, that kind of thing.)
What bothers me about a lot of debate is that there’s actually no real dialogue. It’s always like, Oh, you did/said this thing I don’t like. DELETE. BLOCK. Without actually engaging in a conversation.
And maybe that’s the thing about internet debates. It’s the internet. Not really a place known for its intelligence.
And maybe my Facebook or Twitter feed is different from most people’s feeds. I don’t know. But I see stuff I don’t like a lot. I see a lot of people posting things that don’t really agree with. In real life (IRL) I see tons of things I don’t agree with.
I live in New York City. I see a bunch of shit I’d rather not see.
But the point is that I’m confident enough in my own self and my own beliefs that I can hold a conversation about something without veering off track and censoring the thing that I don’t want to see.
I don’t want to live in a place where everyone talks and thinks the same. How boring.
I’m starting to see a lot of “progressive/liberal” people as actually being really fucking conservative. And I think that is so sad.
But anyway, does this rant make any sense? I think I’m just exhausted and bothered by people, really. I’m tired of infighting.
And I think the point of all this is: GET OFF THE INTERNET.