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Hey guys. Happy Thursday.

I was buying a ton of Manic Panic this morning at Ricky’s. “Are you a stylist?” “Uhh… yes.” 10% off.

Gorgeous outside. I’m anxious for next week. I did end up purchasing a ticket to Portland. I’m going early Monday morning and coming home late Thursday night. It’s a quick trip, but I’m really excited about it. It will be great to see Andrea and Meredith. Miss my girls.

Tonight I’m going to see Jo do this discussion about Valerie Solanas at the Bluestockings bookstore. I read the new Solanas biography last week. It was okay. It turned out to be better than it started. That’s my opinion.

Of the book.

My opinion of Valerie is that she wrote some rad(ical) texts, but was gone in the head. There are aspects that I pity about her. Other aspects kind of make me mad and think she’s an asshole. Basically because she was known to be abusive to people who were trying to help her. But that’s probably because she wasn’t well in the head. And then I go back to pitying her.

Anyway, I’m very interested in what’s said tonight.

Have a good weekend, kiddies! I MIGHT write next Thursday but not sure. Will be traveling that whole day. Will probably post on Friday.




Hey friends. Happy Thursday. Happy blonde hair.

Sorry I missed last week. I took a portrait that wasn’t any good. I was overworked last week—and sorta in between hair colors and didn’t really want to photograph myself.

The weather is perking up. It’s really nice. NYC gets that good buzz going during these times.

Things are okay. Ben’s been doing this job in Red Hook. It’s got really long hours, and we’re on sorta different schedules right now. That’s a little difficult because, as much as I love my alone time, I also like to be with my boyfriend. Share meals and jokes and hang out. Do things boyfriends do.

Debating treating myself with a last minute trip to Portland in a couple weeks. One of my great friends lives out there. And I have another great friend that’s going to be there at the same time. AND I’ve been working a lot, so I’m thinking why not…

I’ve even got this little watercolor travel case that could be really awesome to take in case I get inspired while I’m away.

There’s talk of going to some hot springs in Oregon while I’m there, too. I’ve always wanted to take a dip in some hot springs. Last time I was in Oregon, we drove to the hot springs but the roads were frozen and snowed over, and we couldn’t get to them. Complete bummer.

Anyway, we’ll see. I’ll let you know next week, pals.

Have a good weekend!



SELF PORTRAIT THURSDAY! 3.20.14Good afternoon, friends. Happy first day of spring.

Still doing a lot of overtime, which I guess is good because it means more money. But honestly I’d pass on extra money if it means I’m more okay mentally. Right now I feel torn in my off time: should I make my art or spend time with my boyfriend? I feel guilty working a lot and not being able to have QT (that’s quality time) with Ben. But then I feel guilty about not having a lot of QT with me and artwork.

Constant struggle.

I started a Tumblr—naturally I didn’t get the URL I wanted—but haven’t photographed any artwork with my SLR yet. So, I’ll wait to share that link with you. In the meantime you can look at some newer work on my Instagram. The photos are clipped and not the best, but you get the idea.

In other news, I’ve just been spending my nights watching random documentaries about plants and Japan. Ben and I have started visualizing a trip to Japan. Marked it on the world map we have hanging up. I’d just really love to go and visit.

When I go I want to spend a couple weeks there. Really soak it all up. And eat a TON of ramen.





SELF PORTRAIT THURSDAY! 3.6.14Pardon the mug today. I couldn’t get a pleasant face together this morning. Many things on my mind! I’m staying positive, though.

I’ve still been watching a lot of Miyazaki films. Ben and I went to see “The Wind Rises” on Tuesday. It was pretty good. It was a little slower than I would’ve liked—but that might have been because it’s more of a drama than anything else. It was very pretty, though. And somber.

(Joseph Gordon Levitt does the voice for Jiro, the lead character. His voice sounded sooo dull and monotonous. Jeez.)

I watched “Akira” the other night. That was pretty good, but it almost felt like an endurance test for me. Like how much really intense imagery and animated blood can I watch before turning off the film? Overall I liked it, despite not picking up on the intricacies of the plot. (Like what exactly is an Akira again…?)

I liked the weird, smart babies with powers.

I draw a lot of babies. Or a lot of ideas involving babies come to my mind. Just last night as I was falling asleep I had an image come to my mind that I had to write down in my phone unless I forgot. It made me wake up a little, but it was worth it. Idea is secret for now, but inspired by the realization of the fact that there is a tiny plastic baby baked into those Mardi Gras cakes.

Genius if you ask me.





SELF PORTRAIT THURSDAY! 2.27.14Hey, happy Thursday. I got to work kinda early, so I thought why not take my self portrait now?

This week has been a bit of a blur. I worked a lot, then had four days off in a row. I ran some errands, hung out, and got kind of antsy by Day 4. And woke up with a case of the Mondays—but on a Wednesday. I can’t be satisfied.

On Saturday I watched “Spirited Away” for the first time, and I really loved it. I wasn’t sure how I’d never seen this film before. I’ve watched three more of Hayao Miyazaki’s films since Saturday. And I might go see “The Wind Rises” at BAM next week as a sort of self-date. The films are so imaginative. And their scenes sometimes seem to be taken right out of dreams.

All about it.

I’ve been messing around with watercolor some more. I got a lot of supplies in the mail last week. (Thank you, you-know-who!) I feel like things are really coming together there. I mean, I still don’t really know what I’m doing when I watercolor. But I know more than I did last week. And the week before that.

So there’s that.




SELF PORTRAIT THURSDAY! 2.20.14Good Thursday. It’s “warm” today. The sun is in my face. I’m getting a thrill watching all the hills of snow slowly melt away.

I’ve been working a lot of overtime this week—and will work a lot of overtime the week after next—which is totally not my thing. (I’d rather work less and earn less and feel more mentally okay than work more and earn more money and be more mentally not okay.) So, I’ve been coming home, hanging out with Ben a little bit, then staying up late working on drawings and these watercolor paintings I’m trying to get better at.

Which reminds me… I’ve been posting my work on my Instagram. I need to start a site soon. I took down my old one because it was irrelevant to me now. Maybe I’ll start a Tumblr until then as a sort of dumping ground for all the new work I’m doing.

I guess I’m in a drawing/painting phase. But now that I think of it, I’ve always liked to draw. When I was a kid, my first encouragement to be an artist was based on my drawing skills. Then I didn’t get into this drawing program I applied for when I was a little older then got discouraged from drawing. I’d have spurts of drawing here and there throughout school but nothing too regular. (Even designing t-shirts were designs I wasn’t especially drawn to. They were more commercial, I guess. Or rather, I’d design what I knew would sell.)

Conceptual knitwear designer was what I thought was my calling was a few years ago. But I’d rather not just express myself through knitting. Plus I get annoyed by the gender thing that gets tied into being a male and being a knitter. I just like knitting. I think knit fabrics are beautiful. But I’m really not trying to make a point about gender when I knit. Or needlepoint for that matter. Perhaps at one point I thought I had something to say about it. But ultimately I think having conversations about being male and knitting are really boring. (Does that mean it’s unappealing or without value when a woman does it?) Handwork is really beautiful and impressive enough on its own. That’s reason enough for me.

Okay, rambling now. I had a double espresso earlier. (I didn’t have any coffee yesterday and had the worst headache.)




SELF PORTRAIT THURSDAY! 2.13.14Hey! Happy Thursday!

We’re having really great weather today in NYC. The temperature is just right. There’s tons of room to walk on the sidewalk. No high winds. No snow that stung when it hit your face. It was really refreshing to wake up like that. We’ve been so covered in snow that it was really great to get break.


Yesterday at work was really, really busy and there were tons of issues. And the phone was ringing a lot. I was mentally exhausted by the time I got off work. I wanted to hang out with Ben before he went to bed. But I knew I also wanted to stay up late and work on some art to make the day worth it. If I could just make something that made me happy, I would get a pay off.

I’ve been practicing with watercolors this week. My friend Andrew gave me a small little (mostly dried up) set of tubes of color to play around with. (Good watercolor sets are expensive, and I just don’t have the funds right now to jump into something new like that. So, I’m extremely grateful.) I like the medium a lot. I like how airy and light and trippy watercolor can look. But there’s definitely a learning curve.

I painted one of my drawings and spent a long time doing it. But all the coffee I drank when I got home made my hands too shaky to put down smooth ink lines. My Micron pen was wiggling all over the place. I also got the colors wrong in my painting. So, I’d stayed up til almost 2AM with a piece I was completely unhappy with.

I went to bed super frustrated. But reminded myself that it is okay to do bad work. That is how you get to the other side.

But I really hated what I did.

I woke up and looked at the painting again and still hated it but not so much. On my train ride to work I was visualizing it some more then it hit me what to change next time to make it better. Hit me a slap in the face.

So I learned my lesson. Don’t be afraid to make bad work. It is okay. I am allowed to make things I’m not happy with.

I’m going to try again tonight hopefully. And hopefully I’ve gotten a little closer to the other side.

Stay warm. Have a good weekend!




SELF PORTRAIT THURSDAY! 2.6.14Hi, friends.

So, this is my first day post-The Artist’s Way. Do I look different? I bet I do. No, just playing. But to be honest I do feel differently.

It’s like the first warm day in a long time. Before it’s really cold and no one’s outside. Everyone’s hibernating inside. But once that first warm, sunny day arrives, the city comes alive. People are out and walking around. That’s what my mind feels like. I was in a bit of a vegetative state. I wasn’t inspired. But now my mind is brighter and much more positive.

I can do anything.

There I said it.

Have a good weekend! Stay warm.





SELF PORTRAIT THURSDAY! 1.30.14Hello friends. Happy Thursday.

Today is the beginning of Week 12 of The Artist’s Way. This is the last week! Happy and sad. But I’ll give you a full conclusion next Thursday.

Still cold. So a lot of fun has been happening indoors. (Like the lip sync performance I did last Friday night. Doing another this Friday.) Not really going out much on my days off. But on Tuesday I did go for a walk Prospect Park at night. It was absolutely freezing. There was nobody around because it was night and cold. But the image was really amazing. Blue tones. Everything covered in snow. The foggy whiteness of the frozen lake. I was with David B. He started walking on the lake. I expected him to fall in while I was on shore. He got to the middle of the lake, too. I was surprised the water froze that much. Surprised he didn’t fall in.

I like being in the park at night. Sometimes it’s creepy at night. Especially in the summer. But in the winter it’s just so serene and quiet and special. It makes me feel really good about where I live in Brooklyn. I’ll gladly take close proximity to the park over bars and shops and such. Being near trees and such does wonders for my mind. (Needless to say, I was miserable when I lived in Bushwick. It’s  just really fucking ugly over there.)

In March I’m planning a fantasy trip to Puerto Rico for my six-year anniversary with Ben. I’m not sure it’s going to happen. It depends on some important things happening first. But I’m definitely visualizing it. Researching costs and places to stay. I just want to celebrate having been together for a long time. We’ve been through tons and stuck together. So, let’s get this show on the road!

Anyway, that’s all I got. No needlepoint projects going on right now. Just doing lots of sketching and such. Getting these ideas out, people.




SELF PORTRAIT THURSDAY! 1.23.13Hey guys. Happy Thursday.

What is there to say right now besides OMG IT IS SO COLD OUTSIDE? Really. It’s pretty cold. My face hurts when I’m outside. But that’s all I have to say about the weather.

I’ve been watching this show called “Oddities” about this shop in the East Village called Obscura. It’s really interesting to watch. I like hearing all the stories behind the totally random/twisted items they have. I plan to make a purchase next month. We need a lamp—maybe some weird taxidermy lamp—and hopefully they can hook me up.

I’m almost done with The Artist’s Way. I’m on Week 10 right now. I’m a little excited to be done with it. It has been very nice to read—lucid at times—and it’s helped a lot. I feel more comforted and okay with the world. But I’m ready to get back into the fitness thing. Waking up every morning to write my morning pages definitely gets in the way of working out first thing in the morning. It’s like, I’m not really in the mood to workout right after I get out of therapy. Usually I’m drained. So, I’m not all that excited to workout after writing my therapeutic morning pages. I like to workout first thing after waking up—otherwise I won’t do it.

Also almost done with this cool needlepoint image I’m doing. It’s where all of my creative energy has been going lately. A part of me is scared to be finished because I don’t really have any other projects waiting, so my mind will be like “What next?” But a large part of me is ready to be done and to get this thing out of my system.

I’m curious to see what’s next.




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