I think that today I am not going to be able to finish everything that's on my to-do list.
I got started too late in the day (1230PM). (Didn't leave Queens til 930AM. Then I had to go to Goodwill. And then I had to go home, eat, shower, get my laptop and stuff.)
And now I've got such a bad headache.
But I wanted to let you know that I started reading Sons and Lovers by D.H. Lawrence. (I finished reading The Hotel New Hampshire. It was good. It was good because I enjoyed reading it. And I read it quickly.)
There are two parts that were interesting because they reminded me of myself:
1. "I suppose he was a workman who has got on," she said. "You mustn't mind people so much. They're not being disagreeable to you—it's their way. You always think people are meaning things for you. But they don't."
2. Poor Fanny was morbidly sensitive, always imagining insults.
I've been a bit neurotic lately. Too much.
And I haven't really been expressing these feelings to many people because most of the people are too chill/mellow to relate.
But I prefer that because that's better than being around a bunch of OTHER neurotic people.
I'd rather be around people who are going to keep me grounded.
Some of this book's characters are just reminding me of myself a bit, though—in regards to how I can instantly just hate somebody, even though I don't REALLY hate them. (The author writes that a lot in the book—about how they'll hate someone instantly.)
Like… someone can be around me, talking and I'll just want them gone forever.
Or they can look at me a certain way while I'm talking to them…
I don't know what my deal is.
Maybe I'm on my period.
Here, listen to this song:
I like it.
The Slits are one of my favorite bands.
I don't know what happened to my left hand's knuckles.
The hair is all poke-y (pokey? poky? sp?) like I shaved it or something. Maybe I accidentally burned it off or something while lighting something. Who knows.
It DOES sorta feel good.
I'm excited about this summer because Ben J. is going to work for RuffeoHeartsLil'Snotty and I.
We're going to share him.
Ben's good with patternmaking and things like that. They'll need him for that, I think.
I need him because he's awesome. And he's my very good friend.
Read and post comments | Send to a friend