SELF PORTRAIT THURSDAY!
It’s rainy. It’s cold, but I’m still in an okay mood. Just a little tired. I didn’t really eat dinner last night, just drank a lot of coffee so that I could be up when Ben got home around 1AM. I wanted to hang out, but my coffee plan backfired. I felt really nauseous by the time he got home and almost got sick. Bummer. But hey, I’m good overall.
The week has been a bit of a blur. I can’t really recall a lot. Monday morning was a good morning. A lot of intense physical sensations coupled with excitement at the news that Sleater-Kinney are releasing a new album in January. So, there’s that.
On Tuesday I went to my friend Juan Betancurth‘s studio at the Queens Museum, where we worked on a project together: he tied me up to a wall and videotaped me for over two hours. Well, I wasn’t really tied up. I was tethered with this rappelling gear and just did a video performance where I sort of explored the feeling of the straps on my body and being bound with some freedom of movement. It was an interesting experience… My head felt really empty afterwards. I was drained and my skin was red from the straps and had little cuts from the gear digging into me.
It’s weird going out to the Queens Museum. I haven’t toured the museum yet. Just been to Juan’s studio. But it seems kinda deserted and odd. It’s at the same place the 1964 World’s Fair took place. There’s this huge skeletal globe and some old observatory towers. The park around the museum is huge and empty. It takes forever to get out there. It’s a bit of a trip. Mentally and literally.
In other news, I’m looking forward to having the weekend off, then gearing up to work a lot next week. Whatever, I need the money.
I’m toying around with some painting ideas in my head. I stayed up late painting but wasn’t happy with what I was experimenting with. It’s tough because what I see in my head is a lot different from what I’m able to paint at the moment.
I think the things in our heads always look a little different when we make them a reality, though.